Marriage & Baby Mason.

Wow, quite sometime! I haven't been on here or written anything in so long and there has been so much that has changed i really need to keep coming back, I need to keep writing because when i write i feel so much better like what i cant say in person can be said here. Speaking of what can be said here, Cole and I are on vacation right now in Tucson Arizona I feel happy to be out of California but at the same time i just feel alone to. Cole and his family are so close its hard for me to add myself they have this thing there own jokes and it seems that its just them and i am that girlfriend that is around. I guess that could be my pregnancy hormones to but it has always felt like that i mean when we go back to my home i make sure he feels welcome and i try to have him to everything. Here i am sitting at his brothers house alone while they are out playing ball or something on the air force base i would never do that to him. Then again we have now been married for a year as of January 22nd and i have never felt more alone in our relationship. I think he wanted so much more then what we have now, How do you give someone more when you have given them everything you have. You Cant. You suck it up and you deal work harder and hope it works.


Other then all that great news My little bundle of joy is almost here! We are having a baby boy and naming him Mason. He is not here yet and he is already my best friend i talk to him so much and he kicks back . lol yeah i know sad but true. He has given me so much happiness already and he isn't even here yet. it is so amazing how much you can really love someone so much. Little mason will be here April 10th and i so badly want him here now but i know i wont be saying that when he is here haha.