Its June!

     Its June , Yep the month of my birthday i'm only 18 and i feel old! Th month feels like it is flying by and it is.. My and Cole are way to busy and we are just trying to find time for us. I got a job i know crazzzy i am now babysitting and its a handful (makes me happy thank i don't have any times yet) Our house seem to always be messy along with my mind i cant seem to get thing in place being on our own seemed cool but being a grown up is very hard i have always rushed through my years as a teen and now i want to go back and the truth is i still am a kid we both are but i am happy still just a lot of work.
  On to a much different  note Cole's brother and his girlfriend and coming to stay with us. Part of me is happy and the other part feels like running away crying. Cole's broth has just now found out that we are married and he was upset but he just had to deal and now he cant wait to come out but Cole and I well we don't have a lot of money and it really doesn't even look like i'm having a birthday so i'm a little scared about how things will work out. I know i have to just look at the better things in life because things will get better. So change of subject again I am now selling things on Ebay WOOO! laugh out loud. Things are selling very well and i love the cash it has been paying out big bills. Well i guess thats all for now. But i know i will have more Xoxo


          "Its Not About The Breaths You Take It's About The Moments That Take Your Breath Away"

MOOD SWING

                                                                      
So there is this thing i do with my husband and he cant stand it its called a MOOD SWING why i do it who knows but let me tell you when it happens i think he is ready to kill me. Ha. So we are now settled in our house and liking it a lot we have become very good friends with our neighbors they are a young couple like us both they are both marines. Just last night we party ed all night with them and today we went to the mall and out to eat it was nice. Now as i speak cole is outside our house with all of our neighbors drinking me i am here talking to you this now comes back to that think my husband hates called what again.. Oh thats right MOOD SWING, as to why i have one i really don't know but i have been in that mood where i miss home like crazy and my little sisters they are growing up with out me and i sit here thinking and wishing i could be there when they cry for me to be there i have always been big on family and now that i am so far way i cant help but wish that i was there more and more. Both of my little sisters are now 8. I was just on Facebook and wow they are so big and so smart. I am so happy for them and part of me is so happy that im not there so they dont make the same mistakes i did.

                                                  (found this and laughed so hard)                            
     So yet again this has taken me two days to right last night i went out and ended up hanging out with everyone and then bed, As for this morning well its been the worst day so far i have been very moody and it makes me so upset because my husband just sit backs and takes him he is so damn good to me. So we took a shower this morning and out of no where i start crying and cant stop... theres that MOOD SWING again. He turned off the shower and just sat there with me and let me cry he tried to make me smile but pms well it gets to a girl and everything he said just made me cry more i feel crazy. That thing that happens to a girl every month is the worst and it can make anyone crazy. So as i sat there and cried i couldn't help but see how lucky i have to have what i have. So i guess to end this all so i don't keep going on I am lucky and so thankful for all you guys who read my blog and for all of you who really know me and still put up with. <3
    

Month past

                                                                             


        Crazy, Crazy, Crazy.. This has been my past month i know it has been so long sense i have posted. We have just moved into our new house and its perfect! Its a one bedroom town house the kitchen is bigger then our living room ( Cole loves it ) there is a half bath down stairs in the kitchen and then the bedroom is upstairs along with a full bath. ( Between me and you i was scared to move in with him i mean part of me was so ready for it but the other part didn't know what would happen i mean we had never been together long then a week or two a now i was going to live with him what the hell was i thinking? )  The move was good and setting up the house was way to much fun my own house no rules i felt like a kid in a candy shop until well reality set in and bills, dinner, cleaning it all came at once i was now a wife and it wasn't just me it was me and my husband i had to clean and make sure he was happy as i was. I was lucky in who i married i found a guy who care more for me then anyone in the world i found a guy who couldn't wait to come home to me a guy who loved to kiss me, loving me and just be with me even if it was watching a stupid chick flick that he could not stand! I found not only my best friend but the perfect guy!
      Ok so now that i have gotten all that mushy stuff out of the way, Life is very well so far we have already had some hard times but this comes with marriage and i know that love, faith, family and lost of making up is part of a good marriage. We have now been here for a month and i have been told over a billion times that i am way to young to be married, that i am way to young for any of this and our marriage will be a statistic ( the statistic in the marine core is that most young couples who got married on the guys boot camp leave will end in divorce) I can say that this will not happen to me and Cole. well i really hope it wont we have been through so much that i cant see my life with out him, he is my best friend he keep me in my place and is my happy place in this crazy world. 
    Ok so on with the day it has taken me two days now to write this i miss the days i could sit down and write away but i guess now i can do that when he is at work its just so hard i always have a million things to do! What a life thats i wouldn't trade for anything! Ohh but i did want to share some of my pictures with you guys i have them and they are just adding up! For all of you who were asking i did end up going to my grad i graduated May 21, 2010 GO ME! lol i am very proud of my self never thought that day would come. One thing i never thought would happen is me missing home so damn much i really do miss it along with my mom, dad and my baby girl shadow But i love going home to visit and they love it just as much i can honestly say life is good and i am blessed so much with such a good family and husband who is way to good for me, a mom and dad who love me more then the world will ever know!